zhengyee

2011-07-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

next year on your birthday, i'd show you every thing you ever wrote to me. to prove that i keep every single thing, letter or memory you gave me. for your birthday, i'm giving you, me :)

2011-07-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

hahahah feeling kinda old now. i'm finally 17!

2011-06-30T00:04:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to myself :)

2011-06-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

Everyday I see my dream.
Everyday I see my, everyday I see my dream.
Everyday I see my dream
Ev Ev Everyday I see my dream.
Everyday I see my, everyday I see my dream.
Everyday I see my dream.

2011-06-29T16:20:00.003+08:00

when you need me, i'll be there.

when you don't, its okay i can take the back seat.

but still.

2011-06-28T20:50:00.004+08:00

in a classroom ..

-teacher: write your lover's name on a sheet of paper please.

after 5 seconds-
girls: done!

after an hour-
boys: extra paper please!

hahahha this is so not true.

2011-06-23T01:50:00.002+08:00

i'm on the highway to hell,
highway to hell.
i'm on the highway to hell,
on the highway to hell.
-AC/DC --- Highway to Hell

using my literary skills, i infer that the song writer deliberately repeated "highway to hell" throughout the chorus to emphasized the main point he wants to drive home - he's fucked. which is probably how i'm feeling now too. in addition, the song title is also purposefully called "Highway to Hell", well i conclude the song writer feels utter damnation at the point of time.

and the song ends with, "yeah i'm on the highway to hell~"

cos losers go to hell.

2011-06-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

if what you think of in the day is what you dream of in the night, then my goshhhhhhhhh, you must be sucha busy girl! running through my mind everyday and every night(:

2011-06-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

dear diary,

when are you coming back?

so many things i wanna tell you.

when are you coming back?

so many late nights thinking if you're okay or having fun.

when are you coming back?

we still owe each other stuff ..

please come back soon, i miss you.

xoxo, tree.

2011-06-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

okay i think there's this damn cool bassist without tattoo/piercings, he's the only exception. altho i'm not a korean fanboy! he's hot :O

2011-06-05T21:45:00.010+08:00

tattoos + piercings.

equals to a hot/cool bassist.

so guys just ..

peace ♥

2011-06-05T00:41:00.012+08:00

after 3 months, you got me blogging again.

recently, whenever i turn on my iPod i will definitely listen to 2 Hot Chelle Rae songs.

i bleed my heart out on this paper for you
so you can see what i can't say
i'm dying here
cos i can't say what i want to
i bleed my heart out just for you.

~Bleed, HCR.

and just so you know
the distance is what's killing me
time and space have become the enemy
and what i need is so far away

and so it goes
the distance makes it hard to breathe
my heart won't let go easily
i don't want to be this far away

~The Distance, HCR.

there are so many things i wanna say, but i know i can't just say it to you. because saying it will make me lose you as a friend. and especially now, the distance between us (literally, hahha) makes it so hard for me to concentrate on anything. i tried looking at other people, but they don't give me the feeling that you do.

i'm not a literature person, i can't write love poems for you.

i can't play the guitar and my voice sucks, i can't sing for you.

i'm in a sports cca, but i can't even score a goal to dedicate to you.

even though i play the bass, the rhythm is probably too deep to hear anything.

other people have romantic boyfs, but being my friend probably already renders you to become my "diary", where i tell you everything about the life of another stupid soccer player.

i admit, i do suck. i'm scared of your parents, i see them and i shun away; what kinda fucking man am i ?

maybe i'm just not good enough.

2011-02-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

WOW.

seriously; its been nearly a month into VJC! its tough getting up every morning, especially with the prospect of training 5 times a week from monday to saturday. its hard to juggle with that hardcore cca schedules. but i'm starting to mug! HAHAH, kinda unbelievable coming from me, ikr. but i'm really mugging! every saturday with daryl and yuan ye. when i reach home, i'm like so omfgzxxz-wtf kinda tired. so, i guess its hard to constantly update? but i will blog more!

oops, did i mention i sleep in history lectures? cath high taught me what they are already teaching me in VJC. but hahah okay, i shall not sleep in lectures from tml onwards - must be guai :) and i hate the [Shoot, Shag, Marry] game. that's hardcore disgusting -.-

every morning i wake up to go to school because i know i will be going to school with you :)

not because of soccer, heh. ;)

2011-02-10T23:24:00.003+08:00

some things just won't change.

some people won't be forgotten.

that's just the way things work.

but it hurts.

2011-01-24T01:01:00.001+08:00

my face says it all.

i don't wanna cut my hair.

2011-01-24T00:48:00.001+08:00

2011-01-18T00:59:00.003+08:00

life? here's my view:

get drunk, get high the way you want. go home and sleep it off, then repeat the last night as if life's on the repeat mode. we only have one shot at living life; so stop being afraid and start living the way you want your life to be. 50 years later, look back at your youth and say you enjoyed teenage life your way. because when you lay in your coffin, nobody's gonna offer you that "restart" button. when your chance is gone, it's forever gone. take that opportunity when it passes you; die without regrets.

2011-01-05T23:29:00.001+08:00

cause i would die for you, on skyway avenue.

we the kings, is a great band.

whatever makes you happy, i'd do it.

2011-01-03T02:23:00.001+08:00

sweet dreams that won't come true;

2010-12-31T02:03:00.002+08:00

in my shoes, just to see

what it's like, to be me

i'll be you, let's trade shoes

just to see what it'd be like to

feel your pain, you feel mine

go inside each other's mind.

2010-12-20T01:13:00.002+08:00

last christmas, i gave you my heart. now if you don't mind, i'd give you abit more of me with each passing year.

2010-12-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

i'm a terrible person.

2010-12-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

i played a full length soccer match today. well i guessed the team played quite well, the end score was 5 to 1. i scored the first goal of the match, awesomeeeeeeeee pass by jacob then i sidefooted the ball into goal. and seeing the ball hit the side-netting was really pure ecstasy.

but then as i walked back to our side of the field, i was thinking that i couldn't share this with you. then i felt sian all over again :\

2010-12-07T01:25:00.001+08:00

absence makes my heart grow fonder.

2010-12-06T00:57:00.001+08:00

day one, and 29 more days to go.

cause when i close my eyes and drift away,
i think of you and everything's okay.

lyrics of songs just get stuck in my head :\

2010-12-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

i srsly feel damn loser.

at the airport, it was as though the words were stuck in my throat, i wanted to say, but in the end i couldn't find courage to say it. i wanted to hug you, but i lost my balls to do anything.

even now, i took a few hours just to type this post. i really dunno how to say what's on my mind, and if you ever read this post, don't worry, i'm not upset. i'm just angry at myself.

enjoy your holiday alright~ :)

2010-11-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

cause baby you're a firework

when you're chasing a girl/guy, its like the anticipation of witnessing the breath-taking view of a fireworks show.

and when you get her, its as though the fireworks exploded in the cloudless, night sky. the sight beholds; you're captivated, mesmerized. you want to see more; smile at the peak of its beauty.

then the fireworks show ends in smoke and dust. but will that relationship end just like that too?

no, it won't.

2010-11-27T19:33:00.002+08:00

today was supposed to be a special day.

its kinda tiring to be living under a false pretense everyday.

there's a beating to your heart, that i just can't be apart.

2010-11-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

yknow what, i don't wanna hide it anymore.

i miss you, and i miss the times we could talk about everything and anything.

the life now, sucks.

2010-11-19T00:58:00.001+08:00

you made up, dressed up, messed up plans i set in stone.

2010-11-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

your shoulders are the shoulders i want to put my arm around, not anyone else's.

2010-11-17T00:26:00.001+08:00

hey santa, I don't have many wishes this year, in fact just one. make it come true for me, please? :( I cannot promise to be a 101% good boy, but I'll try.

2010-11-12T23:16:00.001+08:00

can't believe that i'm the fool again.

2010-11-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

i thought i was reaching the rooftop, but you kicked me down to ground zero.

2010-11-09T20:21:00.001+08:00

"你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远."

有恒心, 铁棒一定会摩成针吗? :\

2010-11-07T23:49:00.001+08:00

there's a penknife in my pencil case; I keep tying the stupid string to bundle my Os scripts wrongly :\

2010-11-07T15:36:00.001+08:00

i've been living in a shrivelled-up cocoon shell for the past weeks. it's towards the end of Os; it's the last week of examinations and i'm dying.

2010-11-06T00:18:00.002+08:00

don't it just suck, when people don't reply? :\

i check my phone frequently, but i don't see anything. idk, to me it feels weird, as if something's missing.

2010-10-31T00:41:00.001+08:00

i miss you.

2010-10-13T23:15:00.005+08:00

i throw my homework in the air sometimes, saying, "aayyyyyyyyo, i'll take a zero."

i get frequent headaches nowadays. i think its because of the lack of sleep, but i shld tire myself with the mugging now, then when the actual Os come i can sleep. aiyah, btw i think i go IJC la, so close to my house. wake up at 7:30am in the morning also can ah. IJC is becoming better anyway.

time to start mugging for history; i'm a mugger, so? if you don't mug now, mug when right?

i'll make things will change for the btr.

2010-10-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

so many things can happen in a week. but, thanks for the memories, even tho it didn't end the way I hoped it would be.

if we could re-live those memories; but the ending's still this way, I'll still choose to re-live them.

2010-10-11T11:11:00.002+08:00

when you asked if i'm okay, how can i be? which part of me looks okay at all. you said i'm important - is that just to make me feel better? tell me the truth, please.

Mark and Jeffery always had issues with each other, but that night's brawl was a one-sided affair.

it started with a shove; but Jeffery didn't retaliate. Mark threw a punch, once again shocked to see Jeffery not defending himself. Enraged by Jeffery's nonchalance, Mark gave his all; a series of hard punches straight to Jeff's chest, a kick to sweep him off his feet. Jeffery didn't fight back. Then, Mark delivered the fatal blow - he picked up a rock and smashed it into the side of Jeffery's head, and he drove off in his luxury sedan, leaving Jeffery to die by the roadside.

2010-10-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

i can sense the finality in your voice.

well, now i know how you really feel.

i tried to cry, but the tears won't come. i tried to say something on the bus, on the walk home, but words won't come out of my parched throat.

if this makes you happy, i'll be glad to accept it.

i'm sorry for the wishful thinking on my part.

all the memories won't go, they're built to last. perhaps you won't wanna remember, but i won't forget 'em.

i don't need, and i don't want your apologies. saying sorry won't really help me in any way, would it? i'm just glad you actually did think of us being together before.

10.10.10, sounds like end.end.end.

you gave me the most smiles, yet you're also responsible for most of the days that i'm sad. all that doesn't matter now;

today it ends.

2010-10-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

2010-10-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks, and there you guys are, still playing a fool in class. well i really appreciate you guys, but sometimes, don't you know y'all limits? it really sucks because i cannot study. if you carry on like this, fine. you will be pushing me higher up the bell shaped curve. thanks man.

2010-09-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

2010-09-29T20:36:00.004+08:00

Good evening. this is your fuc*ing captain speaking.
-Eminem; Old Time's Sake.

okay there's about 27 days left to the first paper of Os. we're all kinda busy in someway or another huh. i kinda feel my existence now is just to do mock papers.

for this week:

tuesday - higher chinese

wednesday - chemistry

thursday - both maths

friday - elect geog

saturday - physics.

yes, saturday is packed with a test too. amaths tuition has resumed, but after all, i'm only aiming for a B3 for the dreadful Os.

my L1R5 now: 11 [without deducting any bonus marks.]

but i'm skeptical if i can maintain or do better in Os :\ yeah, i know there's still a month to brush up and polish up my subjects, but i roughly have in mind what i wanna use as my L1R5, so is it really wise to not focus on that two subjects i'm not really adept in? idk.

on the side note, its my first time scoring below 15 for L1R5 ! (:

2010-09-28T01:22:00.008+08:00

why isn't there a swing near my place? :\

2010-09-22T23:48:00.001+08:00

hey miss murder can i.
hey miss murder can i.
make beauty stay if i take my life?

2010-09-20T00:50:00.004+08:00

yknow there are so many schools in woodlands, we were enrolled in the same school. there were so many classes in the level, we got into the same class. then, there were near 40 seats in class, we sat beside each other. not just a coincidence huh? maybe, most probably, this is planned for us eight years ago :)

2010-09-19T01:16:00.005+08:00

i'll keep to my promise.

2010-09-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

i'm suddenly into ad/dc ! >:D

and i've learnt the bass for Highway to Hell and War Machine!

i said, shoot to thrill, play to kill
i got my gun at the ready,
gonna fire at will.

2010-09-17T21:13:00.011+08:00

i think i'm just not a maths kinda guy :\ and today's definitely not a good day, at all.

amaths paper 2 was damn bad.
i had someone clipping my ankles
now my right arm is somewhat swollen.
my shin bone is swollen too, FML.

niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, all that after some fucked up paper that i left blanks here and there, great -.-

2010-09-16T23:00:00.003+08:00

tml soccer after amaths P2 (:

but then again, idk why my mood swings so erratically nowadays. perhaps its exam stress? idk, sometimes, some people just srsly make my day -.- idk why he dresses up everywhere he goes and it irritates me when he acts as though he's superior to all of us. fuck it, we only talk to him to make us seem like we're nice classmates that don't ostracize people, who the fuck thinks he's fashionable? the trend is predictable man.

cause we gon' rock this club,
we gon' go all night,
we gon' light it up,
likes its dynamite.

taio cruz, dynamite. i like ;)

2010-09-16T21:27:00.002+08:00

why the fuck i go curious click on the Valencia's break ankle video?! now i'm damn traumatised luh D: i suddenly damn scared i break my ankle also leh, damn gross! YUCKS.

2010-09-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

just screw it -.- now i don't feel like putting in effort into emaths at all :\ at this point of time, almost all our subjects shld be up to a certain standard already, but emaths is still so ..sucky. i hate amaths too, don't worry. i just don't see a fucking link between "Y=mX + C" and my life in the future. its not gonna get me a wife, and nope, its not gonna help me be better in sports. so why learn? because this society is so uptight about certificates; if you don't have one it means you're useless. so where the fuck is the logic in that?!

2010-09-13T18:14:00.003+08:00

stalin's policies just remind me of you :) maybe because of that, its easier for me to study the history of stalin uh? heh.

i seriously need new shoes. maybe this weekend i'm taking time off to go look for grad night stuff, VANS, VANS, VANS! fourskin shoes won't be that bad either, better still, sperry top-sider, right?

english, higher chinese, chem, ss and history ~~down~~.

2010-09-13T17:00:00.001+08:00

lol i want that kinda Vans!

2010-09-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

you're anything, anything but ordinary :)

you and my close friends never fail to get my spirits high, don't worry, i'll make this fairytale come true.

2010-09-10T22:37:00.003+08:00

thanks for being honest :)

2010-09-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

it doesn't matter how you look like on the outside, because its the girl you are on the inside that gets me head over heels for you. besides! i'm sure you'd look fine with that new haircut :)

bruno mars - just the way you are.

yeah, i know i know
when i compliment her she won't believe me
and its so its so
sad to think that she don't see what i see
but everytime she asks me do i look okay, i say

when i see your face
there's not a thing i would change
coz you're amazing
just the way you are.

and when you smile
the whole world stops and stares for a while
coz girl you're amazing
just the way you are

2010-09-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

how do i live,
without you,
i want to know.

how do i breathe,
without you,
if you ever go.

how do i ever,
ever survive?

i just realised i cannot stand super extra, "fashionable people" -.- he seems like he's going for a wedding almost everyday.

okay, enough about that prick.

the beauty of a 4-year strong brotherhood :)

2010-09-01T20:10:00.005+08:00

member of the official CHS mugging club ~

unknowingly, it's been 4 years since i left my primary school. yesterday i returned to where it all began :) sorry felt like blogging in circles hahhah. its was nice to meet up with all my friends and juniors, but sadly it was tainted with this super gay faggot -.- and my P6 form teacher so nice want to treat us drinks siah! but in the end me and crenshawn bought but nobody paid us back >:\

2010-08-29T01:38:00.003+08:00

mugging is not a solemn affair where you just cram every bit of information into your brain; on the contrary its about studying smart and studying in a fun fashion where your mind remembers the information whenever it whirls about the topic you were laughing about :) although today is a supeeeeeeeeeeer long day, i still had fun studying with my classmates!

stanley chew, darren goh, tay pin and yan hao!

hahah, we were talking about tattoos for a moment, and darren goh sounded like he will tattoo a barcode on his ass and walked about a supermarket. so when the alarm rings, he'd go, "wa eh ka cheng gu lui?" [how much is my ass?] quoted word for word!

well we did accomplish alot, i finished the amaths O lvl specimen paper, 71/80 :O of course, i finished my SEA history too. well but its still the HGF, and i'm damn hum -.- wanna go toilet also need people accompany, like girls -- heh joking! but the school was srsly very dark and quiet after night falls.

#1 -- yan hao got frightened when i accidentally kicked something.
#2 -- darren goh hid behind the door and shocked yan hao after he walked through the door.
#3 -- darren goh was a good 5 metres away and still managed to unnerve yan hao.
#4 -- yan hao felt the coconut tree leave on his head and shouted, "AHHH!".

idk how its possible to be frightened like 4 times within the hour, hahah! :P

but before darkness took over, stanley and i took some photos of the classroom we were in.

who says sunsets are most beautiful at the seaside or out at sea?

if you open your mind, everything is beautiful :)

no matter what happens, i'll be alongside you, brightening up your day like the sun.

2010-08-26T20:13:00.002+08:00

eh brother, i don't understand how you can act and act all day, i mean, don't you ever get tired? if you aren't, you must be better than the haitian and their oscar-nominated documentary, "Diving with the Haiti". c'mon, is there a point in doing this now? get a life, its not what you wear on you that makes you special, its who you are - in fact, we are all special because there's nothing special about us. i used to respect you , i guess now its gone.

2010-08-22T21:39:00.006+08:00

i'm not perfect, but i keep trying.
cause thats what i said i would do from the start.
i'm not alive if i'm lonely, so please don't leave.
was it something i said, or just my personality?

-Perfect; Hedley

you never said, you never said, you never said it would be this hard. sigh, but the sake of my acjc i will work harder, stronger and faster. hahha i don't make sense.

they say a picture paints a thousand words.

2010-08-16T22:50:00.005+08:00

hahah i feel so accomplished today! i finally cleared my old books, notes, papers and what not from my room and now i finally have proper space to put my O level notes! okay idk why, but recently i kinda like doing more work. if you know me since sec1, if you put a soccer ball and notes infront of me, i'd choose the ball. but for some strange reasons i'm resisting the urge to kick balls! doing quite alot of amaths recently, chem is okay but the rest ah -.-

today my friend said to me, if you only feel happy with her, then there's something wrong. i kinda find it true, i feel happy whenever i'm with you, but sometimes you make me feel that i'm damn screwed up. the question is not whether i will wait -- rather, how long will i wait? there isn't an answer to that because i'm telling you now, i will wait indefinitely. and it doesn't mean when you have a boyf, i will 'start finding other girls' because that's not gonna happen; if you're happy, i will be happy too :)

2010-08-13T00:11:00.002+08:00

i wish i was special.

but i'm a creep,
i'm a weirdo.
what the hell am i doing here?
i don't belong here.

2010-08-08T16:56:00.002+08:00

wowwowweewa. so long never post anything, hahha zy has become a full-time mugger >:)

actually no lah, is go school, study then come home freaking tired. the distraction is not the computer, not my iMac. its my bed -.- but anyway, amaths got improvement!

"must run faster ah, you all is the band 3 students"

yesterday had 2-8 bbq, its was quite okay! as usual, i started the fire and cooked for almost everyone. of course, leonardo weikiat the CHEF, also cooked. today all those diarrhea confirm ate what he cooked :P

2010-08-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

PENCIL: you know, i'm really sorry.

ERASER: for what? you didn't do anything wrong.

PENCIL: i'm sorry, 'cause you get hurt because of me. whenever i make a mistake, you're always there to erase it. but as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. you get smaller and smaller each time.

ERASER: that's true, but i don't really mind. you see, i was made to do this. i was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. even though, one of these days, i know i'll be gone and you have to replace me with a new one, i'm actually happy with my job. so please, stop worrying. i hate seeing you sad.

wow, that quote is so sweet :)

been really busy these few weeks, with every subject teacher coming full force at us. but that's okay, its for our O levels. i haven't been blogging much, whenever i come home i just do work until i fall asleep. ahh well, 3 months or so and this will be over! *hang on in there*

on the bright side, national day weekend coming! hahah 4 days of break, i wanna go catch fireworks! D:

2010-07-23T23:08:00.004+08:00

my brother showed me this song, it kinda captured my imagination :\

the best way to prove you wrong, is to show you i'm for real.

2010-07-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

a rare update from me, and and i post a song i'm really listening to alot now.

you call me strong, you call me weak,
but still your secrets i will keep.
you took for granted all the times,
i never let you down.

2010-07-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

today mr.EH talked about children in class. its was a Oral prep question, and i was like feeling totally awed by my class' discussion. we talked about:

1. Only/First/Second/Last child advantages/disadvantages

2. Middle Child Syndrome

lol did you know i'm a middle child in my family?

the middle child often have the sense of not belonging. the fight to receive attention from their parents as they feel that they're are ignored or dubbed off. the middle child often lacks drive and looks for motivation from the first child. sometimes, a middle child feels out-of-place because they are not over achievers.

well i agree i'm not an over achiever! sometimes, i really feel my bro and sis get more attention, so i misbehave to get their attention HAHHA. but i guess, the 3 of us are old enough to tell that no matter the order we were born, our parents love us :)

being a middle child might suggest that these people are loners. not willing to take the limelight for anything, they simply work enough to get by. if forced to use their abilities they will work well, but not under pressure.

middle child syndrome are usually characterized by:
1. lack of friends
2. easy-going personality
3. quick loss of interest in things
4. negative outlook on life

eh i agree on point #4 :\

hahaha i like the joke below:

oldest: i just turned 16!
parents: let's go get you a car!

-2 years later-

middle child: yay i'm 16!
parents: urhm, we're still paying for the other car, if you need one, go borrow.
middle child: ..

-3 years later-

youngest: i'm finally 16!
parents: alright! we finished paying for the other car, let's go get you one!
middle child: but it's supposed to be my turn!
youngest: but it's MY birthday.
middle child: thats stupid.
youngest: mummy he called me stupid!
parents: be nice to your sister on her birthday.
middle child: whatever.

2010-07-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

i woke up with an inclination to listen to this awesome song.

if you get there before i do,
don't give up on us.
i'll meet you when my chores are through,
i don't know how long i'll be.

but i'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
and between now and then until i see you again,
i'll be loving you.

love,
me.

2010-07-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

today i walked past the sec3 classes on the 4th floor and i was thinking what the hell was i doing back then. okay, no point crying about playing and falling asleep everyday in class for last year, i just hope the current batch of sec3s will buck up.

my maths suck, and i welcome you to mock/look down on me. actually, the more people who does that, the better. so i will have more people to prove wrong to, after we complete prelim3. compare maths? how about compare history/fitness levels at this instant now? nobody is perfect, my maths isn't that great, i admit it. Emaths C6, Amaths F9 -- i'm not ashamed to tell you my results, but wait and see. just wait.

most probably getting back history and physics tomorrow *cross fingers*

2010-07-06T21:48:00.003+08:00

my throat hurts. i'm coughing. this sucks, especially when all your results suck :\

my maths really cui already la.

english still okay, EL Oral i got 30/40, then EL Compo i got 20/30. i'm glad i wrote about you lor, if not i won't get that 20 marks :)

2010-07-05T22:12:00.001+08:00

let's try learning the song now, shall we? :DD i learn already then teach you hahha :P

2010-07-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

hahha i dunno what to blog about.

but anyway, one week holiday is over! D: today is already youth day holiday, then tuesday its back to school for me and the awesome cat high sec4s. from today till after Os, there won't be any more holidays :(

well on the bright side, my higher chinese results is linearly related to time with a positive gradient! for people that don't take physics, it means that my results are getting higher over time. prelim2 i scored 68 eh?! not that bad :)

with the Leo Messi F50.. first shot hit the crossbar?! HAHHA, wait and see. there's more to come >:)

2010-07-02T00:46:00.001+08:00

woah, i've really been playing alot this week, especially soccer. school reopens next tuesday! and i think i'm starting to get fat D: later like woony how? :\ i must start exercising.

2010-06-30T22:05:00.003+08:00

thanks to everybody today! although i can't really name everybody now D: i will tml :) we went to The Cage and then watched Toy Story 3!

♥ you guys! :D

2010-06-29T23:20:00.003+08:00

for various reasons, i'm glad my brother is sei yee :)

and he's still up watching world cup when there's J2 mye tml, lol.

idk why, but there's just this feeling i have inside me :\ i shouldn't be feeling this way -- i don't know what triggered this feeling. seems like everytime before i go to Cage@Kallang, i'd feel like this? but then it sucks, idk how to react manzx D:

well on the bright side, i'm finally 16 years old :D

2010-06-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

well its over.

4 years of blood, sweat and tears -- spent on the track almost every friday. pushing the ground every few minutes when we were sec1, small and nerdy Part As. then when we were Part Bs, we wanted to much to hurry up and take over, no need to suffer from all this shit treatment anymore. finally at Part C, when we finally took over. initially everyone was so high on energy, but cracks and divides in this platoon got the better of us. we started slacking, but we're still united. then now finally Part D, when we said we couldn't wait for POP (Pass-Out-Parade). i'm sure behind the smiles we were showing today, deep inside everyone of us there's this feeling of sadness, when we no longer have the opportunity to sit down in the Store to just slack and chit chat. we no longer will fall in with full attendance, no longer will walk to East Coast as part of Leadership Camp.

it's over, our NCC journey. but the brotherhood stays on :)

whatever happened to us, was decided by Fate. it made us suffer all the push-ups, sit-ups and running torment by our seniors, and it made us mature. we're no longer the cute cute, wait-and-see-what-happens Part A, because we're Part D 2010, the leaders from 2009 - 2010.

this post is dedicated to all of you, and to M'am who always gets bullied by us but still treats us so nice! hahha, i won't forget Ophir when she tried to use her spoilt walking stick :P

amd not forgetting the lovely juniors!

there's people like Ang Shen Shen and Abel Wong, hahah. never will forget you all tho, not when you guys always make me laugh (most of the times at you, HAHHA). you guys are great juniors! be nice and jiayou with everything! heh.

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with everything handed on to the next batch, it's time to conquer O levels.

2010-06-28T00:48:00.012+08:00

so i took all night to write this
stupid love letter to you.

well here's a letter for you:

whenever you ask me to find a girlf, i'd just keep quiet and not reply -- most of the times i'd listen to you but i won't listen to you on that, hahha sorry. i said it will be 5 years, it will be 5 years; like i promised about the sending you the photo, when we text 44 years down the road from now on and everything else. when you read this don't laugh! it's a silly guy's stupid love letter, heh :)

zhengyee.

2010-06-27T02:08:00.002+08:00

one week of intensive mugging is over. but strangely, not mugging seems very weird all of a sudden :\ like, when i wake up this morning, then i remembered i deserved a break. please tell me i'm not the only one who felt weird now that we don't have to muggggg! D:

well yesterday was fun :)

first thing in the morning, met small boy kwong and went to school tgt for our last prelim 2 paper. haha instead of studying physics books, i was reading Teenage magazine :O after the do-able paper, we went to queens! joel got his CTR lol (and i'm thinking of getting mercurial). at night was the best :D

we had a wonderful dinner with almost the full Noel House comm, mr yong kindly treated us even though we gotten 2nd :\ haha but the buffet was damn full! imagine 9 cat high sec4 students have to walk hunched-back because we were too full. i ate 9 plates of main course :O hahah but i didn't eat breakfast + lunch yesterday! we sat from 6:30pm to 10pm, HAHAH. then we were walking about town after dinner, we suddenly walked into a bar and watched Brazil vs Portugal. lol then when c.ronaldo had a freekick, we started "ooooooohh"-ing then the whole club follow us! hahha, AWESOME. and we stupidly found out that Esplanade Circle-Line station isn't at Esplanade -- it's at suntec =.=

jiayouu to everyone on monday :)

2010-06-20T01:28:00.004+08:00

marine parade mac's ♥

hahha, today was fun :) and i swear i really don't have any ulterior motives :\

wow, this song has a deep meaning to it :\

give your soul to me, for eternity.
release your life, to begin another time with her!
end your grief with me, there's another way.
release your life, take your place inside the fire with her!

2010-06-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

thank Godddddddddddddddd its friday night. i completed a week of intense of mugging with Joel, Jacob, Yi Xiang and Chang Jing. not easy, but we pulled through. accomplished eh! :D

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up for you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

2010-06-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

this two weeks is burning me out, fast :\

putting in the effort i should have is tiring.

but that's the consequence huh? sec3 year play too much, now suffer for it.

whaddya want from me?

yeah, its plain to see,
that baby you're beautiful.
and there's nothing wrong with you,
it's me,
i'm a freak.

2010-06-13T02:49:00.003+08:00

assisted one, scored another. got a warning, in the end pissed someone off. i promise, no more stupid things on/off the field :\ i gotta stop being so rash.

this bottle of Stevens awakens ancient feelings.

2010-06-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

hey ggp, 44 years later, i want to be celebrating your 60th birthday with you, on 28 January. promise :)

2010-06-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

you, decide my mood. happy on the outside, but who really knows about how i feel inside?

cos she's ~~bitter~~sweet, she knocks me off of my feet.

2010-06-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

what's with the world -.-

so many players that don't even have the looks to be a player in the first place. is playing with people's feelings really that cool? well then i really hope someone plays with yours in the near future, asshole.

[don't worry, i didn't get played.]

2010-06-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

we got a little world of our own,
i'll tell you things that no one else know,
i let you in where no one else goes,
what am i doing without you.

hahah today was surprisingly successful.

history + emaths => yay! :D

hahah but there's still the quote of the day man:

g: -take out correction tape-
m: can i borrow..?
g: take la, if not i take out for what.

hahha! you're so cuteeeeeeeee la :) then your sister also, omg. see the cat like never see cat before lolololol. well i guess, you two are really sisters huh? :P she's thin! you're just thinner okay. and congrats for finishing your first plate of pastamania >:)

eh people, fathers' day is this coming sunday. got anyth for your dad yet? better get them soon!

2010-06-05T23:38:00.005+08:00

juneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

24 more days and i'm legal to enter a NC16 show, hahha :)

2010-06-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

tml ppl bringing shin pads, shirt, socks, pants, underwear, towel and the list goes on. i'm bringing my Happy Jelly Bean! :D take one before the trials, heh (:

2010-05-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

hmm, what if one day you guys see me on stage dancing? HAHHA. omg that will be so funnehh? O.o

runner + soccer = dancer ?! ==> equation is wrong man :(

but i really admire those people who can dance really well. it's a fabulous way to express yourself, through your dance. guys who can dance are hot \m/

[well justin beiber isn't a guy right? :O i'm a guy, you're a girl, he's neither. HAH :D]

but i can never imagine me dancing. for one, my joints are far too rigid because of all the sports. oh wells! i can always see people and be happy for them that they can dance :)

2010-05-29T23:04:00.004+08:00

why am i nice to you?

--> because i'm not nice to anyone else.

~ Happy Jelly Beans ~
instructions:
1. 3 times daily during snack time.
2. Never share this medicine with anyone
3. For maximum effect, wiggle, jiggle and chew before
swallowing

hahah thanks! :) and you're still damn cute. playing with carebears, pooh, tigger, eeyore, dale and chip, and the mutant carebear? hahha :D

okay, i decided to go try-out for the timed trials :\ that's one less thing on my mind now, but there's still prelim 2 coming up soon. been doing quite alot of work recently, idk why i'm tired but i cannot sleep. no worries, i won't slit my wrist to make myself faint to rest. there are much better ways of dying luh. i must die after you die :x so that you won't bear the sadness when if i dead :)

2010-05-26T21:11:00.002+08:00

hahhah okay. this post if for Fun.

literally.

hey Fun, i'm gonna break up with you. i'm in love with another - i'm in love with Serious. she helps in my studies; unlike you. she keeps me on track for my O level. well you just make me lose my focus :\ no doubt we had good times together, i'm sorry Fun, we're done here. i don't mind you visiting sometimes, but from now on i'm with Serious :)

but hey, here's a song for you, Fun.

and after all this time that you still owe
you're still a good-for-nothing i don't know
so take your gloves and get out
better get out while you can

[ I Don't Love You - MCR ]

hahha okay it's abit lame, but honestly. i can find the encouragement to stop playing so much, but i still can't find the motivation to sit down to study. prelim 2 in 4 weeks! D:

today i heard the sentence that i know will impact me forever :\

2010-05-25T23:36:00.001+08:00

damn shitty feeling from top to bottom.

2010-05-24T22:46:00.003+08:00

you call it a freaking holiday?!

when there are normal lessons for the first 2 weeks of june HOLIDAYS, then the 3rd week is self-study. 4th week prelim? there goes a month of at least, a little bit of rest :\

this is week 20, monday :(

fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars. soon ah, i'll be really flying already.

2010-05-23T21:45:00.003+08:00

this is not a post to hint to anybody i'm emo or anything, because i'm not. i just need to rant before i think i'd sink into depression.

too much has happened, and they one after another. first was the sacking, uh huh. then comes chma and the preparation. it really made me so tired and exhausted (don't get me wrong, i appreciate everybody giving me that chance to perform). after chma comes sports day. where i tried my best to prepare for it, do the cheer competition part and get people to run.

okay it was my mistake that there were duplicated copies and we didn't announced to everybody who to report to. but like what CYX said, its like going to a job interview. going for it does not necessarily mean you're getting the job, it means they're giving you a chance to prove yourself and then you might get the job. i'm not saying i'm the fucking best at it, but to be honest with you, you aren't really a sports person, you're a great guitarist. and i asked you to stay, you walked away. did you know J got 4x400m race on that day and we would be short of one man? i bet you didn't. as if the whole fiasco wasn't enough, you had to put it up. it doesn't do you, me, or anybody for that matter any good, does it? its proven - people that aren't involved in this matter are commenting. whatever it is, it was my fault for being such a lousy house captain, not my committee. don't you dare insult them, its because of them that noel is second overall.

but you aren't making me feel any better. i can't read your mind, can i? if not i wouldn't be so vexed. sometimes, i really feel that i'm being really too extra in your life - i'm really confused. what dyou want me to do? please tell me, i'm lost.

i guess, exam stress is getting to me. this is week 20 and there is not break yet. schooldays are 6 days a week, not 5. one day to rest isn't enough. there's still 4 more weeks till prelim 2. can i really do it? idk, i know what i need to do, but i cannot find that motivation to do it. i'm writing my future here, and so far it's just a novel with a depressing storyline.